I think that some of my body image issues have stemmed from being obsessed with a number. I've been squeezing into 4s and 6s because I feel like I've worked hard enough to earn the right to wear that size even though my bone structure says otherwise. At this point, I have less fat in my hip area than I've had in a long time and I realize that the bone structure of my hips are just too wide for most size 4s and 6s. Squeezing into them displaces any extra "fluff" in my midsection making me feel even more uncomfortable with the fit of my pants.
This experience has freed me from mental "prison" that has stunted my progress and broken my spirit time after time in dressing room after dressing room. The number means nothing! What DOES mean something is my commitment to health and fitness, the example that I'm setting for my daughters, and the transformation that is taking place in my life and the lives of many that I care about. From now on, the only number that I care about is NUMERO UNO, number one, me!
"Big, to small, small to big. Size doesn't matter, only you do." -Emily Urbanczyk